Oh, God, the God of my soul, to you alone I bow. I bow low before you, utterly humbled by this great work you have done in me. You have overcome my own fallible nature to make me purely love you; you have given me an undivided heart. To you goes all the glory as you use me to bless those I love. You give me wisdom where there was blindness and love where there was anger. You have revealed and saved and proclaimed. You teach me what is best for me and show me the way I should go. Your glory is ever clearer in me; you give me the honor of illustrating your nature, your incomparable essence. You make no mistake with my life; your eye is ever on my end.
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As I love you better, so too is my love for B____ R____ M____ refined. As I love him, I love you more purely. So strange that those two loves are two sides of the same coin.
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But I do not claim him. I have loved him stubbornly, but to you go the first-fruits of my stubbornness. I am stubborn that I will not lay claim to him, will not call him by any title. I lay before you with an open, joyful, focused, and peaceful heart my Isaac. My dearest love and most precious possession, hands off and head bowed, and say to you to take him away and bless him all the days of his life. I do not give him to you expecting him back, as Abraham was rewarded – that is not the nature of Isaac. I give him to you with the full force of my love covering him and my eyes on your face, your praise filling my mouth.
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To no one else would I entrust this precious thing, this precious man, this precious love. But I know that you will do right by him. You will bless him by my love. My faith will justify him and he is in the best of hands. Take him from my heart, O God, and bring him only closer to you.
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Bless him at every turn, keep him and make your face shine upon him. Give him wisdom straight from your head, which is undiluted inspiration. Show him your glory and use him to do such good. I pray God if he be for me, keep him pure for me alone, and if not, bring him nothing less than a woman who will only bring him closer to you, who will inspire him to see you more clearly. Bring him a woman who won’t take his crap, who will see him as clearly as I see him and always believe in him. Prepare his heart for you and her that he may show your glory as I do.
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You have saved me from the craggy shadow of death, have stayed my own hand for your glory. I bless my scars, my weaknesses for they brought me to my knees before you. You are great and ever merciful and righteous and faithful to save. O God, my heart is full of love and peace and such satisfaction in you. I forget not all your benefits. To you goes all the praise for this great good thing that has been done in me. You have given me an instructed tongue by your Spirit to speak the word that sustains the weary. You have made me a blessing to those around me as I have asked, and I am on my knees before you, utterly abased and humbled that you should purify me so there are no more barriers between us so that my prayers may be the most effective and do the most good possible for my beloveds.
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My mother and my father and my Isaac are my most precious and honored ones, and I pray unceasingly and with great faith and joy for their every happiness, that you would bring them all good things and fulfill their desires with good things so their youth is renewed like the eagles.
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All praise and honor to the God of all for these marvelous things you have wrought in me. No stubbornness can outlast you. You are Wonderful Counselor, who teaches me the way I should go, Mighty God, who vindicates me and uses me for his glory, Everlasting Father, who never forsakes me, and Prince of Peace, who shores up my faith and trust so I might have peace that passes all understanding.
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